The Writers' Circle

A cold breeze pierced her body, rain was pouring heavily just like those tears flooding on her cheek as she toddled aimlessly accompanied by her numbness and fear, the words "Cancer" was echoing in her head.she has always loved biology, but why are these stupid cells muddling up her life ?! Why now?! She wasn't concerned whether she'd live for days or months, all what she was thinking about was him, she would've given up anything to stay with him her entire life, but now her life's fading away and there's no cure.
"Perfect!!" she said as she saw his name on her cell phone's screen, "I missed you, I need to see you" James said in his usual warm sweet voice, trying to sound normal she answered back "oh, listen could you meet me after 10 minutes at the park?!", he replied instantly "I will but Anna, are you alright?!" Anna was suffocating her tears from overflowing when she said back "I'm ok, just hurry up please".
She made up her mind, she knew she had to say these trapped words in her chest but never actually imagine herself speaking them out.all she realized was that he must not know, she would never forgive herself if he suffered because of her, he loves her and the fact that she's dying would kill him.he'd just pretend to be ok for her sake but deep inside he'll be aching, she knew that if she told him the truth her remaining days would be the best, he would do anything to see her happy even if he was broken.but she knew that she wasn't that selfish, she realized that he'd be devastated after she's gone, wanting him not to be sorry for her death she knew she had to sacrifice.
He was standing there alone in the park, how would she love to throw herself in his arms, she thought as she stared at his face in revelation but before she could even say anything he started "Anna, I want to tell you something..woul.." "James, before you say anything, I need to tell you something important" Anna interrupted, James nodded so Anna said in a trembling voice " I want to break up with you." he expected she was going to laugh, but she didn't, she looked dead serious but he was waiting to hear her laughing " you're kidding aren't you ?!"  James asked, Anna looked confused but she managed to say "look James, I'm sorry but let's face it.I've never loved you and I won't and I can't go on pretending that I do" again she tried to impede tears from falling, meanwhile he was troubled, he grabbed her arm tightly and said "Anna, what are you talking about, I've never loved you?! Come on what is that ?!" he looked dazzled, puzzled and shocked, she looked at him straight in the eyes and pulled her arm back "I'm sorry, it's the truth and we'd better end this now".
She left the place feeling already lifeless, considering herself so from the moment she pronounced these words, she slowed down thinking to come back and tell him everything and ask him to stay with her.but retreated.it was hard and painful but deep inside she knew it was for the common good, he'll get over her love soon and find another girl to fill her with his exquisite love.all the way home she kept whispering "you did the right thing Anna, you know you did"
He was standing there, unable to think.it was beyond words to describe, the love of his life has been a beautiful lie, she was abusing his feelings since god knows when, but something wasn't right.how could anybody be that clever and convince him all these past years?! He was just going to propose to her before she let those daggers penetrate his heart.now all he recognized was that it'll be dead hard to get over her; he's severely addicted to every little thing about her, her voice, her eyes.everything.
Lonely days and dark nights passed by, as he lied in his room unable to even move.as if the world has fallen apart all around him and left him wrecked, he wished it was all a dream.but it seemed like he'll never wake up.these headaches were completely destroying him, he looked vaguely at the pain killer bottle, swallowed a bunch of them and a great dark cloud fell in front of his eyes.
"What were you thinking about?! You'd have been dead by now if I haven't showed up!!" suddenly the light invaded his eyes and he recognized Sharon sitting right beside his bed, "I.I don't know what has happened, I must've taken all the pills unintentionally" replied James in a faint voice, "Listen James if it's about Anna." Sharon said in a strange voice, James replied angrily "Don't you mention it now." for his great surprise Sharon started to cry."you didn't let me continue did you?! Anna's dead.she has committed suicide" "committed what?!" James said in a whisper but Sharon swiftly went on "she made me swear not to tell this, but now that she's gone I can't let you think she was a bad person, Anna had a genetic disorder, she was going to die anyway so she thought you'd be better off if you hated her.she locked herself up in her room and struggled for several nights.I used to visit her but she was collapsing, until one day she was actually better than usual, she was even writing a song I was happy for her, but the next day I was informed that she had thrown herself in the river that passes by the graveyard I think she never managed to get over herself pity and her guilt.I'm terribly sorry" and countless tears exploded from her eyes.
He was standing in the grave yard gazing at the grave sign where the words were engraved "everything will slip away, shattered pieces will remain, when memories fade into emptiness, only time will tell its tale if it all has been in vain" he glanced at the river blaming it for taking away his life then hastily unfolded a small torn parchment where her handwriting was once carved, and started humming her last song "all of my memories keep you near, in silent moments imagine you'd be here.all of my memories keep you near, in silent whispers silent tears"
James smirked slightly and walked his way through the cemetrey's gate carving every feature of her face in his memory and her voice in his imagination.