After many years of hoping and waiting, my love and I would finally be reconciled. This I thought was going to happen, until a phone call brought down my dream.
'Hello, my love, how are you? Have you confirmed my flight booking?
Did you make sure that I will have a wheelchair when you meet me at LAX Airport?', I asked.
Silence, more silence, deafening silence, until finally he replied, "No, I did not do any booking. After much thought, I cannot look after you. There is NO more you and me."
Shocked, my body trembled. I could not breath. I pulled myself together and gathered all my strength until finally, I was able to ask him what the problem was.
It was the WHEELCHAIR!
He thought that I was disabled; that I could no longer walk; that I could no longer look after myself; and that I would be a big problem and a big burden to him.
So what happened to our vows to each other? What happened to 'For
better or for worse', 'For richer or for poorer', 'In sickness or in health' and 'Till death do us apart'?
Did I try to explain? I tried my best but to no avail.
Did I feel hurt? Yes, I did at the beginning.
Did I feel angry? I tried not to.
Did I feel rejected? I tried not to feel that way.
Was I bitter about it? Yes, I was then.
Was I disappointed? Yes, at first.
Am I OK now? Yes, slowly, but surely. Remember, it takes time to heal all wounds.
I think I was more thankful now than anything because it made me realized that it was NOT true love after all. I was the only one dreaming of a life with my beloved. My fantasy ended so sadly and I was left picking up the pieces.
Guess what?
I still do my regular exercises, including walking, yoga, swimming and, going up and down the fifteen steps of my home, as the Doctors ordered for my 'bad knees'.
My life is a Gift from God and I love my life inspite of all its imperfections. I did not have to look any further now. All along, I have the never ending and unconditional love of my family who will always be here for me, 'for better or for worse', 'for richer or for poorer', 'in sickness or in health' and 'till death do us apart'.
(Dedicated to Aries7, Written by libran88, Dated 3rd April, 2010)
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